Saturday 1 October 2022

Me and my heart

 Thursday 29 September (two days ago) was World Heart Awareness Day, it also happened to be my mum's funeral. My heart was aching with grief then and still is. 

Although a lot of bad stuff happened to me as I have put in my memoir 'Endocarditis - My Journey' there is one good thing that came from it. Here is what I wrote near the end of the book.

On the good side is that when I had the surgery, I also had my VSD closed, and having that done and/or what I had been through on my own made me able to go to all these hospital appointments on my own, something I had never done before. I feel that it is probably more to do with having the VSD closed that's made me like I am now. I was quiet and not so confident before the surgery, but after it I was able to speak out more, and go to these appointments by myself.

I still believe that this is true. I recall when I was in hospital, maybe because I was feeling very weak still, that I didn't want to walk too far in case I got lost. When I get lost, I get flustered and can have a meltdown. Since I came home last year I have been to many hospital appointments; at Lewisham Hospital, Guy's, and St Thomas's Hospitals. All to different departments and different buildings and zones. Before I had the surgery, I feel there would have been no way that I would have coped doing that on my own. It is a case of having to now, being on my own.


Onwards and upwards I say.

If you would like to read a 'very honest and inspiring' book then my memoir is available here https://www.amazon.co.uk/Endocarditis-My-Journey-Julie-Day-ebook/dp/B0B8VT2X1H